today is mother's day. i have an amazing nine year old daughter who has made my life worth living. also, i couldn't imagine what i'd do without my mom; she's bailed me out more times than i can count, and has put up with my constant crap for almost 34 years. love you, mom!

me minus meds

for the first time in over ten years, i'm entirely off medication (well...with the exception of ambien cr. insomnia is horrible and painful, and i refuse to deal without meds). i've been treated for depression, anxiety and bipolar disorder and have taken pretty much every prescription under the sun. i want to take this opportunity to know what i'm 'really' like, since i seem to have forgotten. so far i'm a mixed bag of emotions, and i'm not sure of what the end result will be (back to meds?) but i'm trying! i'd think i'd rather be un-medicated. raw. true. honest. brutal. moody. mean.